Thursday night I went to my first social event since I stopped drinking wine. This is a group of golfing friends that meet once a month for dinner and to catch up on golfing events. Most in the group drink wine but I noticed more are now just having water or tea. I thought people would notice I was not drinking wine but none did…or at least if they did, they didn’t mention it!
Why did I think people would notice? I have been meeting with this group for 6 years and normally have my two glasses of wine. If the function is at someone’s home, it is BYOB and usually everyone brings wine. Is it because I feel so bad about the amount of my own drinking and I think others are reading my mind? Prior to stopping the booze, I would leave the dinner, stop by the wine store, get a bottle and finish the bottle before going to bed! Then the shame, guilt, and generally feeling like crap the next day would consume me.
It has now been 3 weeks (21 days) since my last drink! Everything is improving. The dark circles are gone from under my eyes, my skin is better, the morning sinus drainage is gone, I sleep so much better and my blood pressure is way down. I know I will have challenges to come with wanting to drink (maybe this is the “pink cloud” of sobriety I have been reading about) but my resolve is to stay strong and continue the quest to be a “non-drinker” – not just sober but a “non-drinker”.
As part of my minimalist journey, I am going through old photographs today and purging. I moved them here 8 years ago and have not looked at them since. My plan right now is to keep a few memorable one’s but to do something with the remainder….either have copied to discs, give away or toss. This task might just be the most emotional one I will have to tackle.